I am surfing through womanhood realizing that suddenly I'm of a biological age where I can safely conceive, I've accelerated past those carefree years of self doubt and mistake making to arrive here. She unleashed. I heard this term recently and fell in love with it, the theory goes, (apologies gentlemen for the femalecentric nature of this phrase), that we are several versions of woman, they exist in our head the mother, the caregiver, the wildling, the protector, the she wolf. All these versions that we keep tabs on, far from being a metaphor for schizophrenia, is a rousing battle call to not be afraid to be all that we are.
I'm entering a phrase of my life that is dominated by a deep knowing, there is still lots of wisdom to be had but I am starting to feel I am the authority when it comes to governing me. Sophia. Gone are the days of passively allowing people to dominate me, or relationships which turned into regimes. My agenda is to do no harm but take no sh!t. It's starting to feel terribly empowering!
In May I fulfilled a life long ambition of mine, I organised and ran a surf & yoga retreat to Norway. It was magical not because we got pristine glassy waves but because in that short week in the wilds of Hoddevik we created community. The yoga turned our gazes inwards delving deeper into our ideas of self and the scenery outside made us feel connected to nature again. I came home floating on air, totally overwhelmed through luck and hard work I'd managed to actually pull it off. This feeling of total bliss lasted about a week, when the all the inner peace I had conjured on that trip got overwhelmed by life outside of ashram living.
Then the real work began. Trying to replicate that peace I had felt in Norway and integrating it into my everyday life. I got massively overwhelmed, tried to throw myself into new projects all the while desperately paddling upstream. You can't go against the flow of things, however much you try. Sometimes you have to allow yourself to flounder a little. When you acknowledge you're not ok, then you actually give yourself half a chance to resolve feelings of melancholy. I had to get help, I talked to my darling, I spoke to friends, I went SUP (stand up paddle boarding). Of course I meditated and made time for my own yoga practice. I've learnt there is life after your dreams, after you've fulfilled your hearts desire. The important part of dream conjuring is to acknowledge where you are right now, to acknowledge your happiness so it can safeguard you and act as a reminder in difficult times, that you will be happy again.
Stay strong love bugs, you've got this.
Love
Sophia x
Photos courtesy of Jemima Stubbs Photography
I'm entering a phrase of my life that is dominated by a deep knowing, there is still lots of wisdom to be had but I am starting to feel I am the authority when it comes to governing me. Sophia. Gone are the days of passively allowing people to dominate me, or relationships which turned into regimes. My agenda is to do no harm but take no sh!t. It's starting to feel terribly empowering!
In May I fulfilled a life long ambition of mine, I organised and ran a surf & yoga retreat to Norway. It was magical not because we got pristine glassy waves but because in that short week in the wilds of Hoddevik we created community. The yoga turned our gazes inwards delving deeper into our ideas of self and the scenery outside made us feel connected to nature again. I came home floating on air, totally overwhelmed through luck and hard work I'd managed to actually pull it off. This feeling of total bliss lasted about a week, when the all the inner peace I had conjured on that trip got overwhelmed by life outside of ashram living.
Then the real work began. Trying to replicate that peace I had felt in Norway and integrating it into my everyday life. I got massively overwhelmed, tried to throw myself into new projects all the while desperately paddling upstream. You can't go against the flow of things, however much you try. Sometimes you have to allow yourself to flounder a little. When you acknowledge you're not ok, then you actually give yourself half a chance to resolve feelings of melancholy. I had to get help, I talked to my darling, I spoke to friends, I went SUP (stand up paddle boarding). Of course I meditated and made time for my own yoga practice. I've learnt there is life after your dreams, after you've fulfilled your hearts desire. The important part of dream conjuring is to acknowledge where you are right now, to acknowledge your happiness so it can safeguard you and act as a reminder in difficult times, that you will be happy again.
Stay strong love bugs, you've got this.
Love
Sophia x
Photos courtesy of Jemima Stubbs Photography
