Thursday, 11 April 2013

Fighting with salt.



















I didn't think I could feel the depth of longing for salt water quite so much as I do now. Both tears and waves are what I need to cleanse me and revive me from the sadness howling around the caverns of my body. 

A dear friend of mine has died and the void which he's left behind within my life takes the breath right out of me. We hadn't spoken for ages but he was the kind of friend I assumed I'd randomly meet again on a beach somewhere. He was such a free spirit and well phones weren't his forte. 

His name was Joey and he was one of those rare kinds of people that made you think there couldn't possibly be anyone like him anywhere else in the world. Joey was the person who got me interested in veganism and was an influence for the surfing. It dawned on me that ironically Saltburn, the first destination for the land locked surfers club, is where he used to surf. 
I'm going to try my best to catch a wave in his honor. I want to sit on my board between the sets feeling the ocean move underneath me and thinking about our memories together. 

Joey being Joey.


Round one of an eating competition.

Beach gymnastics 





































He used to talk to me at length about this poem called Jonathan Livingston Seagull which uses seagulls as a metaphor for life. I've started reading tidbits and am finding it really resonating with my thoughts. The shock of loosing Joey is immense and I don't know how to get my head around the fact he won't be around anymore, he was such a life force, an effervescing kind of person. 

If our friendship depends on things like space and time, then when we finally overcome space and time, we've destroyed our own brotherhood! But overcome space, and all we have left is Here. Overcome time, and all we have left is Now. And in the middle of Here and Now, don't you think that we might see each other once or twice?
                                  - Jonathan Livingstone Seagull 

Over the last couple of days due to work I've had to bottle up my grief but at home, here in my own space, I find myself unable to stop crying. Its at times like these Jack Johnson cds are on repeat, his tropical melodies give me great solace and remind me that I can overcome sadness. 

I also keep thinking that I need to appreciate the wonderful people I surround myself with more and not take their mortality for granted. I don't want to feel regret for not making enough effort. Life is sexually transmitted and fatal so make sure you live it well. Go hug the person next to you and ring dear ones immediately or even better go see them and tell them exactly how much they mean to you. 

And lastly listen to this. 

Stay strong, surf well 

x



 













Sunday, 7 April 2013

Underwater.

There's this feeling I get when I'm underwater where I am completely calm. I inevitably imagine I'm a mermaid and bask in the suspended silence only water honors me with.

Its why I find wipe outs infinitely fun (unless I'm about to be smeared across rock that is)! The scary part of a wipe out is the pitch forward, knowing your going to face plant. Once I'm under water however I find myself enjoying the feeling of such immense energy washing over me. I become lost in the sensations of being there so much so that resurfacing feels a little obtrusive (I do however like breathing air and sure as hell need it)!! 
I wonder sometimes if my somewhat stunted surf ability is due to my enthusiasm for falling off my board....


There is nothing within the parameters of my own life which compares to the adrenaline rush of a wave way out of your comfort zone. In Senegal I tagged along with competent (and some pro)surfers into waves WAY out of my skill range. I inevitably spent the majority of the session scraping sediment and feeling useless sat out on the shoulder. The roar of a wave behind me felt like the hooves of stampeding horses, I'd whisper 'get your shit together' before promptly being vaulted into the inky darkness of the ominous water beneath. 

Recently I've been climbing a lot more. Aside from the great climbing gang I hang out with (hello Redpoint)! I do it in the hope it will increase my core strength and somehow make me a better surfer. Well I've encountered whilst climbing that same little rush of fear when I suddenly realize I've climbed too high and am loosing strength. Trouble is its paralyzing, I cling to the rock like a baby Gibbon and refuse to move. Its most annoying!

Sounds stupid but I tell myself to breathe, I exhale and remember the only thing dangerous is being under confident. Over coming fear is such an important part of life and a lesson I like to learn constantly! 

Any who that's enough musing for one day here's some photos from the week! 


[Home] You can feel summer is on its way. Hello sunshine! 


[Kurdish tea] I randomly bumped into one of the refugee youths I previously worked with. He insisted on treating me to some Iranian food which was wonderful and we finished the meal with the delicious Kurdish tea above. New. Like.  

 

[Suspended Antonio] I thought this was so neat, you get an egg timer with your tea so you know when its the optimum temperature to drink - neat! 

Until next time water babies! 

Stay strong, surf well! 

Sophia 

x

Tuesday, 2 April 2013

StreetWaves

Light casts away darkness, and the StreetWaves experience is that bright light of life that nurtures the souls of its participants.

                     - Maui Goodbeer, Streetwaves founder

It is both a privilege and a pleasure to introduce my forth interviewee Maui Goodbeer the executive director of StreetWaves.

StreetWaves is an awe inspiring charity working in Florida to help disadvantaged youths, living in difficult socioeconomic circumstances through surfing.

Although Maui and I have only corresponded through email you can feel his energy and passion for the organization and I challenge you not to be inspired after reading about all that he does. 
As part of the surfing tribe we are our own community and when we have the opportunity to help one another it is imperative that we do so. 

Please help Maui and Streetwaves with their fundraiser which can be found at:

www.streetwaves.org 
on facebook at facebook.com/streetwaves 
and twitter at streetwavesorg.



1.  As an accomplished surfer being new at it probably seems a long time ago but can you tell us how you first got into surfing and how long it took to feel like you were competent?

MG: First off, I only consider myself an accomplished surfer based on what I have experienced from surfing since the day I began. It’s a relationship that is different every day. It ebbs and flows and grows. At this point in my journey, it’s kind of like considering myself an accomplished walker, eater, or talker. It’s no longer something that I do, it’s truly a part of my survival. If I go too long without surfing, I get an uneasy feeling of disconnection within. As my surfing has evolved over the years, on a conscious level I would say that this love affair is more about connection to Source Energy than it is about surfing anymore really. Nonetheless, I was first introduced to surfing when I was 10 years old. I grew up with a single mom and we had teenagers that were surfers in our apartment complex that had their own apartment.  I thought they were really cool and they started taking me surfing. My mother was unaware that I was surfing so I had to leave school and sneak off to surf, as I did with many things at that age I guess. What I found through surfing is that I felt confident long before I felt competent. It was in the later years that I felt competent because I gained a sense of proficiency when I started traveling to surf because I was riding different types of waves in different regions learning different things about the vastness of the ocean and my connection to it. My overall competence came from learning more about myself through my relationship with the ocean.

2.If you were to give advice to aspiring or beginner surfers what would that be?

MG: SURF, SURF, SURF….as much as you possibly can. PADDLE OUT…
Don’t get discouraged and never give up. Have fun, be safe and respect the majesty of the Ocean and local surfers. Trust in yourself and allow your relationship with the Ocean to nurture your progress.

3. For the benefit of the surfers across the pond, could you please tell us the story of your organization StreetWaves and how it came to be?

MG: I started StreetWaves to honor a promise that I made at my younger brother’s funeral. My younger brother was brutally murdered by a 16-year-old gang member in Southern California in 2003 and at his funeral I made a promise to personally help inner city children. I had no clue how I would do this but after surfing the small gentle waves in the warm South Florida beach breaks I was inspired to teach children from under-resourced communities here. Exactly 5 years after the anniversary of my brother and my joint birthday of August 31, I founded the non-profit youth outreach organization StreetWaves. I am excited to say that…. “It is working!”

4. What are some of the biggest issues facing disadvantaged inner city youths and how does surfing help resolve those issues?

MG: I would say that the biggest challenges our children face are all of the negative influences experienced on the street level. The communities are full of negative vibrations and negative influences such as drug abuse, prostitution, gang affiliation, violence, etc. Surfing creates a pathway back to nature that connects all who paddle out with a life force and a connection to source energy. The fundamental concept of getting youth off of the streets, or more literally leaving the community that is negatively influencing the youth and having an interrupt in daily patterning, is crucial to self actualization. StreetWaves is that light at the end of the tunnel, a safe haven. More importantly when we facilitate a regular surfing experience on the beach, the children are no longer seeking that light, they are a part of that light in those moments on the beach in the surf. Light casts away darkness, and the StreetWaves experience is that bright light of life that nurtures the souls of its participants. This light is then taken back into the community and illuminates its surroundings and can become contagious to others and liberating to the light bearer. We find that resources are scarce in the inner city and the opportunities are not always available for growth and expansion so we raise funds to support providing these opportunities for children to be exposed to something that can alter their neuro pathways and give them a sense of belonging to something greater than what they are familiar with. As the Executive Director it is my job to provide the funding for our organization. Basically I have to bring the funding into our organization and these children are depending on me to do so. I will take this time to share with you our upcoming StreetWaves summer surf camp fundraiser. 

Please follow this link to be apart of what we are doing this summer and every summer for under-resourced youth in our community. Crowdrise.com/streetwaves here you can start a team and help us bring about change in the lives of our planets children. Often times we Americans have a tendency to forget or are even unaware that charity doesn't just leave our shores it also supports our country. One of our most generous donors ever was a gentleman from Australia who realized that the US is more accustomed to sending aid than receiving it.

5. Real Women have Curves and Surfboards explores surfing themes from a female perspective, what have been the challenges facing girls from inner city backgrounds and how do you think surfing has benefited them in particular?

MG: The challenges that we have identified among our female surfers have been numerous. We have found over the years that cultural norms are often held closer to the heart of the female participant than the male, i.e. resistance to change, stepping outside of comfort zones, cultural identity and support, fear, fashion, and hair follicles. As funny as this story might seem it was quite amazing to see the spirit of one female surfer who had the courage and creativity to go against all of her normal inclinations to participate just after getting her “hair did.” After arriving on the beach for the very first time ever with a group of male and female participants that were bussed in from one of our local community centers that serves a very dangerous and under-resourced community, this particular female student was so eager to get into the ocean and try surfing that she tied a plastic shopping bag on her newly pressed hair and paddled out. To my surprise the shopping bag never fell off the entire day. I know how powerful the ocean is, and on any given wave that bag could easily be ripped off of her head, but her intention and nature worked together to create a beautiful connection. Today she is often seen paddling out to surf. 

The biggest challenge I would say that we have seen is the male influence that women have in the inner city communities. We have had female participants that have been involved in prostitution who have gotten away from the lifestyle if only for a short time and then fallen back into this lifestyle due to the male influence and economical reasons. We have one female student in particular who was recently charged with murder and this came after she got a new “boyfriend” who was also charged with crimes as well. So we are eager to bring young ladies to the beach and share this new culture and positively influence the young women in these communities. We also try to attract young couples and families to the beach and encourage surf dates.

6. Can you tell us a success story of someone you've encountered whose life was changed for the better after taking up surfing?  

MG: I would have to say that everyone I have ever met who I knew before and after they took up surfing has the success story of a life changed for the better. We have many, many children whose lives have positively changed through surfing. I will tell you the story of Calvin. Calvin is a young man who was introduced to surfing after a partner organization brought him to a field trip surf day with StreetWaves. I have personally watched this young man blossom into a totally stoked surfer that literally surfs daily and catches the bus from the inner city to surf instead of getting into the usual trouble he was a part of. He watches and reads surf reports, travels to surf, goes to the US Surf Expo annually and has a passion for surfing and teaching others that runs deep within him. He developed a surf nickname of “Cali” after years of surfing and is a truly changed man that came from a life of neglect, abuse, and instability in the foster care system. Out of privacy and respect for our youth participants I am not able to share much more about most of our students but I will say that over the past 5 years we have literally seen hundreds of lives not just changed but transformed through surfing.

7. Can you think of a time during your surfing/life where you became stuck and how you overcame that plateau?

   MG: Surfing is a process and when you look at it as the process of connecting to source energy you can equate it to dancing. The more we dance the better we get at it. I honestly have never felt stuck because to me there really is no goal other than to simply keep surfing without expectations. However, there have been times where I have stumbled over the feet of this gorgeous dance partner that I have called the Surf and she has let me know that she was not pleased. For example, while surfing in Costa Rica I was held down in overhead surf after doing something that I knew better than to do. I took off on an early set wave after having surfed for hours. After at least 5 pounding reef scrubs, I washed up on shore and was resuscitated by a few surfers and beach goers. I learned the first lesson in rehabilitation. The ocean will never change to accommodate you so you have to change to accommodate and acclimate to the ocean. Surfing is a rhythm that requires patience and timing and to be in that rhythm is magical and to be out of that rhythm is like dancing with two left shoes on. Surfing is truly a privilege and not a right. You have every right to surf but it’s a privilege to have the experience of being able to surf safely, and with passion. I overcame all fear of the ocean after this experience and my energy shifted to a place of loving respect for her grand energy. What I tell others that do feel a sense of slow progression is to pay close attention to the 3 main elements of the dance we call surfing: the spiritual, mental and physical. I relate the spiritual connection with timing, the mental with wave selection and technique, and the physical with ability.

8. It seems that you have a lot of responsibility in your life as both executive director of StreetWaves, surf instructor, advocator, mentor, friend etc, how do you balance all these sides of yourself and stay energized and committed?

MG: I am driven by a source greater than myself and I truly believe that I can do all things. At the end of the day, all it takes is believing in myself and source energy and not letting circumstances derail that belief.

9. What is your vision for the future and how do you plan to accomplish this?

MG. My long-term vision for StreetWaves is to have chapters along the coastline of this country and abroad near communities where under-resourced children live. We have recently partnered with the University of Miami to start a UM StreetWaves chapter. Our plan of action is to partner with Universities and students around the globe that have the desire to start chapters along the coastline of this planet. We are a part of a growing consciousness that is in sync with the rest of the world. We are constantly raising money to continue to provide these services with global expansion in our hearts. If you would like to share in this mission please share this link to our online summer surf camp fundraiser crowdrise.com/streetwaves here you can set up a team and raise much needed funds to continue this work.

10. If the world was ending tomorrow what would you do in your last 24 hours on earth?

MG: Honestly, I would board our sailboat and sail away with friends, family and loved loves, because the earth may come to an end but the ocean lives forever in my heart. Plus, since I have been chasing waves for so long, it will be kind of nice to let the waves chase me for a while.  You can follow our journey at our website at streetwaves.org on facebook at facebook.com/streetwaves and twitter at streetwavesorg. Thank you so much for sharing our good news and caring enough to reach out to me. Maui

Thank You Maui! 

The Curve of it.

Hey soul sisters, 

I rose early today and felt happiness effervescing in every corner of my body. Despite hair that looks like I've woken up in 1983 life is good, its not perfect, but it sure as hell is good! 

I'm really starting to get into doing the video blogs you know, I'm out walking and I'm generating ideas about what I'd like to talk to you all about next. I honestly wonder why I didn't do it before its like free therapy! Sometimes just saying things aloud helps you make sense of your thoughts - or as my ma always says: 

'A problem shared, is a problem halved.' 

So without further ado here is my second installment of video blog, I've creatively named it 'Video Blog 2.' 
Enjoy! 
    



This Weeks Inspiration.



Ignore the cigarette its not cool kids! 









Stay Strong, Surf Well! 

x


Saturday, 30 March 2013

Queen Bee made me do it.








































At 8:56am I was crying watching Beyonce: Life is but a dream on catch up and demand. Here is a woman, a child of destiny who literally redefined what success means to the 21st century woman. 

In her own words she inspired me for one hour 27 minutes about how being vulnerable is actually ok, that women are beyond powerful and above all that love endures. She said so many nuggets of wisdom that I'm struggling to remember all of the quotes I could use on this here blog! 

Well Beyonce gave me an idea. I've been toying with the notion of film for a while now and seeing Bey use video blogs as a way of finding solace has given me the courage to give it a try for myself. I'm planning on putting together a surf film when the land locked surfer club heads to Saltburn, but for now I'm going to practice getting comfortable on screen and editing by leaving a few video blogs of my thoughts for the day on RWHCS. 

Notice in this first video I forgot to brush the dry shampoo out of my hair (which gives me lovely silver grey streaks) and that I've held the camera far too close to my face...

*cringe* 

Rest assured watching this video, I am fidgeting and rosy cheeked throughout - but hey growth is allowing yourself to be vulnerable! 



Pictures of the week. 

Yet again Birmingham city is proving me wrong, far from being boring this week has seen the return of Flatpack Festival (no nothing to do with Ikea!)Flatpack festival takes over venues across Birmingham (UK) every March bringing in people from far and wide with a mixture of films, performances, contraptions and surprises. This week alone I watched Shynola: The collective (the animators behind music videos such as Queens of the Stone age, Blur, Coldplay and the title sequences of The IT crowd and Scott Pilgrim vs the world), a silent film about Joan of Arc in Saint Martin's Cathedral and today enjoyed bicycled themed frivolities in the custard factory (a factory which has been converted into a creative space for Birmingham artists).  

Its good to have a passion in life. 






   




































Stay strong and surf well amigos! 

Love Sophia 

Wednesday, 27 March 2013

Snow in March.

























To me inspiration is like a fizzing in my fingertips, I practically effervesce until I find the medium in which to express myself. Finally after a drought of creativity I woke up feeling completely rejuvenated so much so I had to be dragged away from my artwork. I've eagerly begun my project:

'Rottweilers dream of love'

and have started making preliminary drawings in my sketch book. I've seen this massive canvas in my local art shop and every time I go past it I get a pang wishing I was inspired enough to create a piece of art work so large. You know what, I think I just might. I just might buy it. I need a challenge and if I can highlight the plight of dog breeds who often end up unloved in rescue centers then even better! 

Here's a sneak peak at the direction I'm taking, you'll notice there's a distinct surf theme there too! 



































































So anyway. 

There is never bad weather just bad clothing.
- Anon. 

There's a reason us Brits talk about the weather all the time. Its not because we're trying to make polite conversation its because we are genuinely baffled by our weather system. Last March we were wearing shorts because it was the hottest March on record, this year we're moaning because we're knee deep in snow and its set to get colder. We're always unprepared because for some reason we never see it coming! 

Now I've always been a glass half full kind of person which is precisely why snow is an excuse for me to get wrapped up and go play outdoors. So I roped in a best friend, grabbed the family dog Jack and promptly made our way to the nearest beauty spot to appreciate how awesome snow is. Voila! 






(Below)

This guy was an absolute legend, he spoke to us for ages and joked that he looked like a character out of Harry Potter. His dog Flossie was also gorgeous a Springer spaniel x Labrador cross who managed to win Jack over!



Keep watching this space we'll have another interview coming soon! Until then...

Stay Strong, Surf well 

Love Sophia 





Monday, 25 March 2013

Rottweilers dream of love.




















Since deciding (somewhat abruptly) to put together an artist's portfolio in the pretense of becoming an art therapist (I say this lightly as you all know my career is as changeable as the British weather), I've been stuck in a bit of an uninspired vortex. 

The trouble is I'm over thinking it which naturally leads to artists block. The blank white sketch book seems a vacuous stretch of potential and it scares the bejesus out of me. Before I even start to draw my mind is filled with doubt and self loathing for the art work I'm yet to even start. It doesn't help that I am flirting with the Birmingham art scene and even though its been in a completely different medium (I've been around a lot of digital art and independent films recently) it still makes me think my bedroom based sketches seem a bit of a joke. 

Obviously this is not the attitude to have as I'm fairly certain all artists go through periods of hating their work. Heck poor old Vincent Van Gough cut his ear off! Whilst my ear lobes are still in tact I am getting increasingly frustrated with feeling that the work I'm producing is just 'pretty' pictures without any 
real substance. 

So far I made the vague decision to do projects on surfing, sea life, tribal women oh and Rottweilers. Whilst half way through a marine themed painting I decided I just had to explore drawing dog breeds that are considered dangerous e.g. Rottweilers, mastiffs, Dogue de Bordeauxs, Pit Bulls, Staffordshire bull terriers. This decision is largely based on the fact I've grown up around these types of dogs and love them but also that a lot of these dogs are perfectly lovely pets if given the chance. Its sort of inspired the project title:

"Rottweilers dream of love." 


(I challenge you to not smile watching this super CUTE video...) 

Well I felt monumentally chuffed with myself until a little googling produced the search results of Givenchy's Rottweiler jumper. Dam Givenchy has already made Rottweilers a thing! 



  



































I was inconsolable for a little while until I realized Givenchy has gone with the stereotype, look at the teeth on that jumper! I think I'm going to explore the theme of 'the soft side of dangerous dogs' anyway and see where that takes me. 

Obviously in terms of my surf blog, this is a somewhat irrelevant post but hey I think my diligent followers have come to realize this isn't just a space for me to pay homage to surfing, its a bit of an online journal somewhere to thought purge. 

Um. Sorry about that. 

This week I've been very wistful, much is happening in my life and I am grateful for all the peaks and troughs it brings. I'm still unsure what my niche is in this world but I'm not going to be afraid to love, or be loved in return. 


The simple pleasure of finding a great new hang out in excellent company. 




Some-days I want to be a wildlife conservationist, others to be an art therapist. I dream of living in a little house by the sea where the waves rouse me from sleep and afternoons are spent watching sand spray from the heels of my dogs, whilst my body nestles into the alcoves of my great love, we walk two figures along a beach. 

These days I'm not sweating about what I haven't got, better that I spend my energy cultivating patience, finding contentment in the simple endeavors and above all daring to dream at all. 

Until next time Surfettes and surfer dudes! 

Stay Strong, Surf Well 

Love Sophia 



    
I just hate to be in one corner. I hate to be put as only a guitar player, or either only as a songwriter, or only as a tap dancer. I like to move around.

- Jimi Hendrix